There are just no words.

Nothing can express what i'm feeling right now.

Its like, im awash in a floodgate of emotions.


Today marks the day where my life would change.
At least, my ambition.

I wanna be a musician.

I was searching for some quotes bout music.
To sorta, correlate with what im feeling now.

Every single one, seems to express what i feel.

But not one come close to expressing me.
See, as one of the quote goes,

Music expresses that which cannot be said and on which it is impossible to be silent.

Music expresses feeling and thought, without language; it was below and before speech, and it is above and beyond all words.


It is, truly, the shorthand of emotion.

It produces a kind of pleasure that well, i dno. I've nv felt anything like that bfore.

It is like. An orgasm. But a prolonged one. if you know what i mean.

ahh it feels damn good.

this is what life sounds like.

it soothes the mind and gives it rest.
and nothing is more impt than enjoying this bliss right now.

it heals the heart and makes it whole.
it is love in search of a word.
it flows from heaven to the soul.


itititititit gives soul to the universe.
it gives wings to the mind, and lets the imagination take flight.
it gives charm, and gaiety to life and everything, fuck.

it flies me to bliss and can bring me to tears
fill me with conflicting eomtions
calm me, argggghhhhhhhh its so good. damnit.


you know, the times where.
i read about pple saying things like.
"when i listen to _______, i feel like im in ____, looking at ______"
or things like,
when i play this phrase, i think of _____, etc.

and i think "yea right. crapload of bullshit"

but now, im starting.
yea, just starting to experience this myself.

i finally understand what it means,
to play the music,
and not the instrument.

and then,
you realize,
music is everywhere.
it is enveloped in silence.

just as an artists paints on a canvas,
music is painted on silence.

the pause is just as important as the note.
because of silence, can i say, i appreciate music.

hell, i can do this everyday.
just listening and making music.

but chem's 2mr. damnit.
i should begin my mugging session today.
after well, playing my violin, talking, eating and sleeping.