the beginning of the end

and the countdown started for me ytd.

i think reality hit when i realized how screwed i am.


18 days left.
and i havent touched econs, bio and gp.


not like my math and chem very good also.


in the 2 years
i had fun.
i know it.

we had fun.
we laughed and played.

but who's gna have the final laugh?


i think what matters most depends on what you really want.
i really dont give a shit bout results.
they're just a yardstick to measure how much you know.
how much you know about things that arent going to be part of your life 10years down the road.

but i wanna do law. i really do.
but i've to mug my balls out for things that dont interest me at all.

i think its kinda sad.
you sleep a third of your life away.
say, you live for 81 years.
you sleep 27 years away.

you start your education at 4 or 5.
and carry on till 24 or 25.

they say in 70years, a typical person spend an average of 3 years waiting.
queuing. and that sort of things.

so there. do the calculations and you have around 30 years more.

out of the last 30years of your life.
you spend 25 working.

then you spend the last 5 in retirement.
looking after grandchildren.


honestly, i dun want it.
why do we have to study for 20 years?
WHY?!
2 years of preschool. 6 years of primary education. 6 years of high sch. another 6 years for college.
just so we can slug our asses off for another 30 years.
stupid yeah.

i realize, people do it for job security.
the smarter ones do it for life security.

but does it equate to happiness?


i guess for now.
i'll just do my best.


i will just accept what i get.